I wrote a novel and thankfully deleted it and saved you from reading a mess

I’ve been on both sides .. friends dropped out of my life because I was overwhelming them with chronic pain, so many doctors and tests. I was like an emotional vampire. I was so hurt and mad as they had backed away. I simply was too much.. once I got a T and he helped me understand , I got it

On the other side one friend that did stick with me..she lost her husband, she needed a lot of support but after a year she was still a mess, texting me around the clock , angry if I didn’t respond right away. I told her she needed a T to help her process her grief.. Nope ! I finally had to take a big step back. I feel bad but she was overwhelming me.. she always wanted to come over. When I’m really hurting I simple want to be left alone.

We check on each other if bad storms are hitting, we sent each other a birthday wish on Facebook. A random text here and there..

Both sides of the coin just freaking sucks

Best advice I have is be kind to yourself