Thank you, @~Christina ...

There was a little group of us at work that used to hang out - fishing, road trips, game nights, etc. then it just suddenly stopped.

No reason was given and when I tried to talk with them about it, I'd get that blanket response that makes you feel like you aren't seeing things exactly how they are but you know in your heart that it is exactly what you're seeing.

Anyway, yesterday one of them was discussing an upcoming road trip they're about to go on and asked another co-worker to come along. It was like I wasn't even sitting there - which just kinda stung and opened up an old wound I thought had already healed.

So, I came home and had me a good little crying jag, then I got mad as hell and went through the house and yard and took everything they'd ever given me, drove it up to the dump and tossed it - just like they tossed me!

Who needs their bull@#$%! tokens anyway - or even them for that matter!

I'm starting to settle back down now and will definitely take your advice about being kind to myself to heart.

Thanks!