It's just one thing after another. I just have this dark cloud hanging over me. Just when I think things are going well, lightning strikes and ruins the whole thing. I can't think positive anymore. And there is lots of evidence of my past failures. Some people are meant to succeed, some aren't. Some people are born to win, some people are born to lose. Not everyone is equal. Some get dealt a crummy hand right off the bat. No amount of kudos for waking up and taking a shower is going to help. Yes, I have gotten up from each setback, but it gets worse over time. This time, I'm staying down. I won't get hurt that way.