When you marry someone, you also marry their family. And I am not happy about marrying into this particular family, I must admit. There's always drama surrounding each family visit. Today, his parents were yelling at each other in our presence, and I didn't like the way his father spoke to his mother. It was rude and unpleasant, and I told my husband we must leave and that I couldn't stand to watch it anymore. And having his mother insult me? That really hurt my feelings.

I've been trying and working so hard to rid myself of toxicity in all ways in my life, and here it is again, in this family. My own family is different than this, and far more peaceful, though of course there are issues there too. Every family has their issues I suppose.

But since it was so stressful today, both my husband and I had to take a Zanax to calm down.

Tomorrow we have to spend most of the day with his parents and brother, and I am not looking forward to it. I AM looking forward to our time alone together though, whatever little we can find in the next two days.