(((((((((((((((KJ))))))))))))))))
I know you are having such a hard time, but it is so not worth it to throw away all that progress for one night. YOU are so incredibly strong and I know you can fight the urge.
You may not think you are hurting anyone, but you would really be hurting yourself.
Think about tomorrow. Would you feel guilt, shame or would you feel proud of yourself and like you accomplished something?
It is your decision, hun....but know that I will be with you and here for you if/when you need it.
Just remember that I think you are an amazing person with a big heart!!!!
BJ