I bet you're missing me, since I haven't been on here very much in the past few months. I haven't forgotten you. I just wanted to let you know that I'm doing well. Amazing, yeah!

For the first time in years, I feel good. I've had depression for 16 years, with some years that I had good partial management. My depression has definitely lifted quite a bit. I had such a great day yesterday. It kind of cracks me up. I really enjoyed grocery shopping with my hubby for the first time in such a long time. after doing the chores, i went on a walk in the neighborhood with my dog and thoroughly enjoyed it.

My hubby jokingly said that I was freaking him out this morning because I'm so different now. Lol! Depression does affect my personality. We are just thrilled with the results of my new treatment. I did not expect so much results this soon. I had a VNS Therapy pulse generator implanted in February, the 27th. Now, it's like, WOW!

It was such a long battle with my depression and it's effects. I went through the worst-ever of depression in the few months prior to getting my VNS Therapy. I had to fight with my insurance company for coverage on the surgery and the treatment. It was oh, so hard to do with my depression. Not only did I do that, I also gave up my nicotine addiction last November, which is extremely difficult to do on top of the depression that is not adequately treated by medications. It was a strange relief when I finally won the long battle with my insurance company. I remember lying in the hospital bed after my surgery in a state of shock, not because of the surgery but because that I finally succeeded my battle and finally have my VNS Therapy pulse generator inside of me. I'm amazed that I made it.

My plan for now is to enjoy as much as I can while I go through step-by-step in rebuilding my life. I will still come here once in awhile. Of course, I will definitely come when I need support. I am grateful to have this website to come for support. I want to thank all of you for your support.

I used to frequent the Depression Forum a lot. Now, it's too painful to read about the suffering with depression in the forum. I don't know why that is, since I know depression all too well. That could change in the future. I just want you to know that I still support people who have depression. It's just too painful to read in the forum, so it would be impossible to give out my support. I don't know if that's a normal response, since I'm recovering.

I wish you all well and the best. Don't worry, I'll still come here once in awhile. I miss you all!

wickedwings