i haven't had any kids, yet. i'm 36 and want to have one before i turn 40, for health and risks reasons with pregnancy. my hubby and i hope to have one or two. we have held off on that due to my chronic severe depression and financial issues (we have too many medical bills and debt). i'm afraid to have kids because i feel way too responsible for the kids' mental health well-being and don't want my illness to affect them in a negative way. not only that, it's so scary to have kids with things that go on in the world that are out of my control. and i definitely have severe trust issues with the public school systems (i can't afford private schooling and it's impossible to find a secular private school). i doubt my ability to home-school. i just don't know and i need to get over my fears in order to have healthy parenting.