welcome lbeats88. having struggled with a few of the same problems, I can relate to how you feel. I think highly of myself but sometimes I get defeated by how I think others may think of me. I let my own moodiness get in the way of how I feel about myself and what I know about reality. I think what you describe is common in most people, even if they don't know it. But it is difficult to say what is causing your anxiety and patterns of thought.. I think it is important to continue to explore these issues here and with those you may feel comfortable with. I wish you the best of luck in your relationships and again, welcome to psych central