Thank you RhysMadison. For posting here as well as for your offer for PMs. I appreciate it so much.

I don't know any parts of me. No pact to make. I envy people who say that they know what is going on all the time. I am just here or I am not here. Where I go, nobody knows. People just think I am "moody" for the most part. I am moody when I am me, I can imagine how moody they must think if they deal with other parts of me.

Thank you for your understanding and support. Posting made me feel entirely too vulnerable so it may be a while before I post anything else so personal but thank you. I'm glad I didn't delete the post.