The guy that I like is very reserved and doesn't want a relationship. This is significant because it is a pattern that I've always followed. I want a relationship but I always choose the "safe" guys. I enjoy the thrill of liking someone but am nervous about being in an actual relationship. This presents problems when I like a guy that does want a relationship. I always run away and immediately end things. I want to be able to have a long-term relationship, but I'm always worried that I'll run as soon as things get more serious. I feel bad and as if I'm 'using' a guy when I like him, because I know that something long-term probably won't come from it.