I keep thinking I caused the coronavirus by not working hard enough to stop the organization behind it. I feel so guilty and responsible for all of the lives lost. I hope it doesn't harm anyone I care about. I'm just a wreck. I am irritable, crying (which isn't like me), and not getting any sleep despite being completely exhausted. I exist in this half asleep, half awake state. I can't get any work done.

I'm not suicidal or anything, but I just need this to stop. I want to call my psychiatrist, but I doubt there's much he can do. I'm not getting any work done and am so overwhelmed. I'm hearing voices, which isn't that unusual for me - but it's not helping. I just want to sleep until I feel better, but I have so much work to do. I'm so scared that I'll fail at my job. It's so hard to keep doing this. I'm so tired.

Any words of advice or encouragement are welcome