Can't you be bisexual? According to psychological research (for what that is worth *S*), homsexuality and hetrosexuality is experienced on a continuum....it's not neccessarily an either or proposition. Some people the researchers say are 75% gay and 25% straight and some 50 / 50....some have gay relationships only 10% of the time. Very few people who have sex with same gender partners are 100% gay so these researchers ave found.
Also, athough most people who have sex with opposite gender partners consider themselves 100% straight, maybe they aren't daring enough to try having sex with someone of the same gender as themselves - in case they find out they enjoy the experience and then have to change their entire beliefs about who they are, what is "normal" and what is not.
I suspect that your mind and intellect responds pleasurably to the supportive, loving, environment that is more often found in the company of women, just the same way women do in the company of other women. Your body, however happens to respond to a mans touch the way most womans bodies do to a mans touch..i.e. it becomes aroused. This is not so different to the way most mens bodies respond to the touch of a woman....but these same hetrosexual males would all agree that a womans mind and emotional way of expressing themselves is way outside their understanding.
Be proud of what you are....a man who enjoys sex with one gender and emotional closeness with the other. Seems to me you have the best of both worlds.
Sue. P.