I am here as well if you need to talk! I certainly hope your Surgery, and @BethRags' as well, will go REALLY well with no complications! Keep us updated! You are doing good by distracting yourself in any way you can. Keep trying your best! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, Deilla, your Family, your Friends, EVERYONE and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK, MY DEAR, SWEET, KIND, AWESOME AND WONDERFUL FRIENDS?!