Still depressed and now stressed because of work. It's really busy and will stay that way for several more months. All I can do is to work diligently and try not to think too far ahead.

I read an interesting thing recently. It was about focus. It basically said that if you look for yellow cars on the roads, you end up noticing them. They are there but you don't notice them because you're not looking for them. The same goes for opportunity.. you see opportunity because you're looking for it.

I suppose I could extend that idea to happiness. I look for things that make me happy in order to notice them.

I haven't had much success so far but it's early days.

Maybe if I focus less on what makes me sad and more on what makes me feel better. The problem is that I have been so low for so long that I really don't know what might make me feel better. The sun? Blue sky? Warm air? The fact that I'm able to experience these things on my own?

It's my son's birthday soon and I sent him a card by overnight courier. It's expensive but the card will get there on time. Last year I sent the card half way around the world, he was so far. Now it's 'only' across the country. Better 3 time zones away instead of 12.