i'm fighting off chemically induced depression and mood swings. Sometimes i feel pretty good, other times i feel like something you'd scrape off your shoe.

i'm trying to keep T's words in the forefront... catch myself when things slide and try to find out what the first thought or feeling was.. is there a trigger, etc. i'm trying to be ok with not feeling so good right now, meaning that i'm not going to just drop dead from it and i don't need to have a specific "reason." My life has been a mess for a very long time.. big life issues, medical problems, marriage break down, abuse, etc... but i treat myself as if that isn't enough justification to just plain feel bad. How much do i need?

i know though that a huge amount of the bad stuff is the hormone/chemical soup i am sitting in. It's frustrating. i can work on myself all i want and i will still feel like crap.