I experience a lot of loneliness. I have no real life friends. So I count on my family a lot. But most of the time, they are not available. Most of them ignore me, including my own daughter. Last week was M's birthday. She won't talk on the phone, so I sent her a text to wish her well. I never heard back from her. I got worried this week and sent another text. She finally replied. But it didn't take away the huge disappointment.

My sister J used to text me from time to time. Now she doesn't say anything to me. She's just too busy. I tried to let her know that it bothered me. She got pissed off at me when I tried to tell her how I felt.

I could go on and on about how my family is letting me down. I don't know what I can do. It's beyond my control. I try to be the one to initiate. But I'm sad that I either get ignored or don't receive much of a response. I wish I wasn't in their life at all.