I sure understand feeling like a freak, feeling different in a bad way, and feeling as if I somehow deserve being abused.

I was taught to feel responsible for all sorts of bad stuff that had nothing to do with me. I was abused as a child and that was my norm, meaning that was all I knew. So it took years of therapy as an adult, a lot of hard work and persistence, to finally get it through my thick skull that I am okay, that it is okay for me to be human (which includes making some mistakes and not being superhuman), and that having a good life now is a great way to break the chain of abuse.

Do you have any crackers? Cookies? Milk or juice? Toast? Anything really easy to fix and eat? Cause if you do, or can go out and get some, I'd like to try a friendly agreement with you.

I've been having a somewhat rough weekend. I don't feel good physically and I'm also feeling anxious - my neighbors were fighting early this morning, that sorta triggered me.

Usually I might be sorta spaced out and hyper today and I might not take good care of myself. But I want to do something different this time.

I have some applesauce and an energy bar. (See, I'm waving the spoon in the air!) I'm eating and I'm going to drink a tall glass of water too.

Want to join me? I'm thinking we can hum a giddy little tune at the same time, hey, we can dance with our food too!

Let me know what you think. We can do this as an experiment, no pressure, just fun and friendship.