Quitting would be helpful. You sound like you want to but something stops you. I think it could be fear, shame, anger, frustration, and overall feeling bad. What do you think?

You feel guilty that your computer broke. But you also wrote that there is a fix for that. It seems like you feel stress around your family. I don't know your situation, but I know relationships are hard. And when we have depression, things can get out of hand quick.

I hope you find what you are looking for