It makes perfect sense, @lizardlady!

I always joke that the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak ...

But, oh how my heart still wants to be able to go and do all the stuff I used to be able to go and do.

I did find a therapist, and am going to work through some of the more darker & hurt places.

I'm also asking them to help me with my medical anxiety so I can get myself in to be seen by a rheumatologist.

Y'all keep your fingers crossed for me, and hopefully I'll find some relief physically and emotionally!

Again, your and @~Christina's sharing, support and advice is most appreciated!