Some stressors this week with relationships and predictably I have gone into self critical mode again.

I have no idea why this happens. When I read online it says it's due to parenting, being blamed by parents frequently and a pattern established.

The thing is I don't think I was. I think my childhood was fine, my parents fine. Quite why I do this is a mystery. I am trying to understand it but I seem unable to. I try to stop it but it's really hard not to.