I don't know if you'd call my reasons selfish or selfless....in a way I guess you could say I chose...or you could say I'm just taking the guilt of my abuse.

I am now unable to have children because of the numerous psych meds I've been on. I used to want to have kids but after taking a look at my life I've decided that bringing a child on this earth (even if I could have them) would probably be one of the cruelest things I could ever do to them.

I've been trying to get pregnant almost 10 years...no such luck...and I'm sure the meds have messed me up pretty bad...even the most fertile of men couldn't get me pregnant...but I'm sure it's a good thing.

Both my siblings have enough kids for me to spoil....I'll just be the aunt who spoils...or the cousin who spoils...the one everyone loves (I'm a true kid magnet lol).