Wow, very sorry about that Sinking. Things like that are really difficult to deal with, yes.

Do you have a trusted person you can open up to and express how you feel? Someone you can sort of lean on?

Also, utilize whatever online resources [of which PC is obviously one of them] as much as possible. And distractive activities/hobbies no matter how seemingly irrelevant they may be, can take the mind away from the self for x-amount of time.

What about your doctor? My one's actually a pretty empathetic guy - costs money though.

And there's, reading posts or material about people trying to cope through the exact same things as you, I've found, has a kind of therapeutic effect...

Don't you worry, friend. Hang in there, believe, because you're gonna make it.