Oh yeah, I agree 100%, pain is better to get relief from. Bipolar is cyclical and you KNOW it will end. Thankfully the surgery ended my pain but man those years were awful. I was angry so much of the time cause of the constant pain and lack of sleep that went with it. I still think some of this newfound stability I have is because I have greater tolerance for life's daily fluctuations now than I had before I went though that Antony. I am constantly amazed how sweet you are cause I was a *****