I am glad you haven't deleted your post. I remember how when I had my very serious attempt in 2015 that when I was with others who didn't know (for instance, my H and I went to a play with friends), I felt like I was different from every in the room and if they knew what I had done they would be shocked. It was hard to think of much else other than how shameful what I had done was. I was in a whole different mindset and PC was the first place I could talk about it. My H supported me as much as he could but it was hard (and would be repetitive) to talk to him about it everytime it was on my mind because it was always on my mind. My POV is that it helps to have a place to talk about it. Hugs to you. I know the more recent the trauma is, the harder it is to talk about it. Stay safe Jennifer and everyone else struggling with this issue.