Hello MyBrainisAmess: I see this is your first post here on PC. Welcome to Psych Central. The OCD forum, here on PC, may also be one that will be of interest to you. Here's a link:

https://psychcentralforums.com/ocd-a...chotillomania/

I'm not a mental health professional. However, in reading your post, it occurs to me your struggle may have more to do with what is referred to as Pure OCD than it does with sexual addiction. So here are links to 6 articles, from Psych Central's archives, on the subjects of OCD & Exposure and Response Prevention Therapy. I'm also including a link to an article by our host Dr. John Grohol, Psy.D. on the subject of masturbation:

Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD) | Psych Central

Pure Obsessional OCD

ERP Therapy: A Good Choice for Treating OCD

Exposure and Response Prevention Therapy for OCD

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/fearl...dium=popular17

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/fearl...rder-part-2-2/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/is-mas...n-bad-for-you/

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.