Hi MyBrainisAmess,
Welcome to psych. I really do not know much about this kind of thing as I've never had something like that happen to me.
Although when I don't get something I want for so long (e.g sexytime) I lose my mind. I obsess over it to a severely unhealthy degree. It ruins my relationships and makes me resentful and so on.
The crazy thing is, when it actually happens, it is nowhere near up to what my expectations were. In fact it can be downright dull and boring at times.
I guess the point I'm trying to make is... maybe it isn't all your mind is making it out to be. Maybe you think that's what you want because it's almost unachievable. Like a forbidden fruit, as such.
I also am in no way an expert, but I hope you manage to find comfort in PsychCentral, as these guys have helped me through some tough times in the past.