Hi again.

I'm sorry I'm writing a lot here these days. My life is very difficult right now. I can't really cope, things keep getting worse and worse for me.

I have a lot of anxiety and can't see a way out for me. I have plans about doing something to myself next week. Everything is black and I feel paralyzed. Can't see a way out as I said. And everyone who says different I don't believe.

I think inpatient is necessary for me, if I can get it. I'm seeing my psychiatrist this monday.

God, I'm really not well. I'm so afraid of what will happen. I don't want to die but I can't see any other way.