This ^^^^^^offered by Gabyunbound is on the money, in my own humble opinion.

In reality, MANY have offered you great advice over the time you have been with us.

Giddy, seeking (and being diagnosed with) a diagnosis you think you want (and do not have)can have long-term adverse effects upon your life.
Should you mislead a pdoc (consciously or not) and you receive a diagnosis, the diagnosis will follow you for a lifetime. At some point you may discover this is not only incorrect , but is also no longer desired and you will not be able to get rid of the diagnostic history , nor any detrimental effects upon your life.

Many of us had suggested, when you first came to this site, that you keep a mood chart and possibly a diary, that you stop seeking to fit any particular diagnosis and that you see a pdoc.

I am unsure as to why you will not heed any of this advice and am also unsure of what you are looking for while you are here? I am not saying you have no place here, don't get me wrong. Many people have taken a LOT of time to read your very many posts and have offered a LOT of advice. You blow it off and/or invalidate almost anything anyone offers to you. This is your perogative, of course; yet, it leaves me puzzled as to what you are looking for from this community?

I AM concerned about you and I do think you have very real needs.: however, it certainly appears as though you not addressing them.
There comes a time when many of us give up because we feel you still are not listening, or not listening enough to take some real measures which will make real changes in your life. If you don't care then who should?

You could investigate DBT simply be visiting dbtselfhelp.com. This site is largely written by people who have mastered DBT and hope to offer others the same opportunity (at no charge). The site has been successful; it has been offering DBT lessons/opportunities and support since 2001.

Please do reconsider some of the suggestions .
Please do take a look at DBT.

In the very least, please see a pdoc and a therapist. I honestly think a therapist might help you in a very big way. It's clear you can benefit from some help in sorting things out as well as some support while doing so.

I hope you will find whatever is truly most helpful to you, not only now, but also in the longer term aspects of your life.

Please do tell us how we CAN help?

We do care.