I’m too embarrassed to talk about how last night went, so I won’t. We’ll leave it at that. In other news I randomly have dry mouth and have lost some sense of taste. I don’t think it’s med related because I’ve not had any switch ups or increases/decreases or anything.. I dunno, it just makes this dull day even more dull. I don’t “feel right” today. I am not comfortable. I’m not comfortable at all. I don’t know how to express it, but it’s like everything is devoid of pleasure and life. I live in a state of depression, but this is different from what I’m used to. I don’t like it one bit. I feel panicky, scared, uneasy… anxious. I’ve got to get a hold of myself. I feel I’m spiraling out of control emotionally and I don’t know what to do anymore. It’s not “resolving itself”. The benzo didn’t help, by the way. They just don’t seem to have any effect.

I don’t mean to be a Negative Nancy, Debbie Downer or Sally Sensitive over here. But this just sucks. lol