{{{{KJ}}}}} I lost my kids to foster care a long time ago, one who was only 28 days old, and I was nursing. Needless to say, I had a breakdown. I can honestly tell you, the pain has never gone away, but I am so grateful that I have my current son - he is a beacon in my dismal existance.

At least you can talk to your children. I had all contact cut off due to the stupidity of my ex-husband.

I will keep you in my prayers. Cry all you need to - it is a healthy release and perfectly normal. Stay strong.

Mary Alice