I have had one serious attempt. I “attempted” once when I was 15 but it was more of an ultimatum to show everyone how serious things were rather than a true attempt. The second attempt, at age 19, was serious. Woke up in the ICU. Was hospitalized for seven weeks while receiving ECT treatments. Things got much better.

From the time I was 13 until I was 19 not a day went by when I wasn’t at least passively suicidal. After ECT this eased up until bipolar came and bit me in the *** again when I was 25. Then it was back to constant suicidal thoughts. For two years though I have been stable and had no sui thoughts. I really enjoy it.