I let it get to me, and what I felt was valid, but I internalized the whole thing until I put it one here.

I have more stress, things are closing, and stores are a nightmare. I am still recovering from a sinus virus and having to confront my anxiety. It's terrible, and it is intensifying. I have taken two different meds to help and still feel anxious.

I'm stressed out, anxious on top, and you're right, it does SUCK!!

Then I think, how can I manage? And my options are not great. I don't want to isolate, but I feel forced to isolate.

I also don't feel overly connected to anyone IRL. Well besides my T. I was hoping to let him know that the stomach pain was an anxiety attack with gas in my belly.

With all that is happening, I'm questioning my sanity. And I can't doubt that!!! I have soo much to do.

I did take about over an hour to crochet. It helped, but it added more anxiety. I"m barely hanging on. I need to prevent a crash. I don't need to seek inpatient, and it wouldn't help enough. Maybe this will make sense to some of you. What I seek is validation.

Validation does not come easy, but often in times of struggle, it's what we all need, especially me now.

I can feel my mood dipping—first time in several weeks. And I need to change this around. How do I deal with all this?

On a positive note, My Muse is coming on Monday in the mail. I sure hope neurobiofeedback helps, and quickly.