Dear @Wander, I am sorry you are suffering right now. I totally understand how/why you feel as you do, but this discomfort will pass. It will! It is not permanent. Patience and persistence during such times may seem like hell, but it is crucial! I know your doctor will work hard to help you. It is important that they know precisely how you are feeling.

PC is here as a support for people with bipolar disorder and the symptoms that come from all kinds of stressors and triggers, including illnesses like fibromyalgia. When we are ill, we often can't be expected to provide support to others. That is totally understandable. As for seeking support, we want to support you as much as you need. When you've been able, haven't you supported members in your current situation? Please stay. It would be sad for me to think you don't seek support here when you need it.