I don't know why I can't seem to multiquote, so I just have to tag in the rest of the folks, I guess. @Fuzzybear @Gabyunbound @~Christina and might as well tag you too @Wild Coyote and anyone else concerned or reading...
Please hear me out.

Well, to this particular quote,

WC, where IS all this coming from? I don't heed ANY advice??!! When did I ever say that?

-Journaling and mood charts-I have been doing those on and off since joining here (and maybe even before when my NPdoc required it). I can't say that I've been very good at it or that it's been very helpful (well, some of it. when I keep it short and sweet), but the longer posts, i mean, how am I ever to look back and find anything in this mess?? And, fyi, I did those mood charts and my NPdoc never even looked at them! :/

-DBT-have already tried it-didn't work for me

-I told Christina (in PM) that I had already been working on some of her suggestions...but it IS hard or next to impossible for a lot of those suggestions and for a number of reasons

-Fuzzy- I have also been trying some of the games here, but so far I haven't had much time for fun and games...i also use the chat.

I'm getting mixed messages here. I'm "normal" but I have issues?? what does that mean? Ok, ok, I understand and respect that you don't think I should want to be labeled as something that I don't have, that "no diagnosis is better than the wrong diagnosis". But if I'm having normal experiences, why then is it such an imperative that I even see a pdoc? And that brings me to my final point. I feel like some of you don't respect me unless I have a pdoc (have you even considered that they might all be terrible here?)

-how CAN you help? You can start by reading this journal thread regularly that a few of you insisted I do (against what I thought might be most beneficial to me...but I "heeded" that advice). But Just be supportive and sympathetic. share examples of what works for you or for others, but remember that all people and circumstances are different and what works for someone may not work for me. so be patient and understanding if and when I say I've tried something and it doesn't work. And/or be sympathetic to my fears and anxieties about doing new things. Most of you do this already and I see it being done for others, so I don't think this is too much to ask.

I do love and care about ALL of you too! I wouldn't be communicating with you so much if I didn't! But it is getting exhausting explaining myself time after time when it seems I am not being heard (just as you seem to think you are not being heard). I'd hate for it to come to this, but if I feel like we'll just never be in agreement, then maybe I'll have to stop replying or even stop posting in this section altogether. Just so you know, I've been pretty upset about these things for the past few days and I wouldn't be so upset if I didn't care.

Hugs and love to you all!