It's about quarter past 11 in the morning here, Mat - Hopefully you have managed to keep breathing and made it through most of your Sunday. If I were you when you get to your appointment I would stress how terribly suicidal you feel and not pull your punches. In the States they usually pay attention when you start talking about that because they are afraid to be sued if you actually do anything to yourself. (Which of course you are NOT GOING TO DO).

Much love, many hugs...... Thinking of you...