The governor of my state is likely to announce a statewide shutdown of all public and private schools tomorrow. Many districts have already shut down. I just got a message that I have to report to work tomorrow, likely to clear up and finalize plans for remote learning for our students. Not sure if the students will be there, but I imagine not. The county is shut down. I think we’re only a few days away from a complete lockdown. Cases in my state have doubled again, and that’s only those that have been tested. I did manage to find meat by going to the grocery store as soon as they opened. So we’re good for at least two weeks, if not longer. My brother is going insane with anxiety, I am very worried about him. He has been dealing with undiagnosed, untreated mental illness for awhile, and I now suspect that he is an alcoholic on top of it all. Today he told me he had to have “two beers” just to feel normal. That is very concerning to me. But now is not the time to confront him about it. He really can’t access help until this whole thing is over.

Me? I’m doing ok. My heart was racing a bit last night but it’s ok today. I’m a bit lightheaded today again but I’m trying to chug water in case it’s just dehydration. I was supposed to go to the cardiologist tomorrow but I can’t leave work early. Not sure when I’ll be able to go at all. I don’t think it’s an emergency though.