I am so sorry You're struggling so much, @WovenGalaxy! I COMPLETELY agree with all the other wise and wonderful posters. Definitely back off if You feel like You need to do that. It doesn't have to last forever... You can always explain to Him that it is just temporary. Wanting affection is a perfectly normal human desire, but be careful in rushing Your decisions because of it! Take your time. Try to practice self-care and to dedicate some time to yourself. We are all here for You if You need some support and I am REALLY happy You have some friends as well. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH You, @WovenGalaxy, ALL of Your Family, ALL of Your Friends, This Friend of Yours and ALL of Your Loved Ones! Keep fightign and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK, MY DEAR, SWEET, KIND, AWESOME AND WONDERFUL FRIEND?!