Yes you are correct . No I haven't seen a psychologist before.
Luckily for me , I somehow managed to stop compulsive thoughts as soon as it appears on my mind . I will react by smashing table or just breathe in and out and stop myself from smashing the table.
The incident happened 2 years ago definitely made me scared to ask my teacher questions , even trying to care for her makes me wonder what if the same things happen again , what if she thinks that I have other intentions . Even when I want to text her to ask questions about something I don't know , I just can't do that , I am so scared , so i only ask questions in class. I wish to know her better , but I just can't stop thinking about how bad things could possibly end , how I will lose control and have the urge to text them once or twice a week or even a day ...
One of the most pleasant moments is recalling how sweet her smile is , I don't know why I just like seeing her smile , it kind of acknowledge my existence and comforts me ...
My trauma has been solved for about 90% , but it affects my decision and my confidence to text her ... I need opinions on this the most tbh...
Thanks for your opinion once again , feel free to share your opinions with me , it's helpful .