I made two serious attempts to end my life. The first I was still in high school and my dad came home and drove me to the hospital, don't remember much else, and the second was almost two years ago and my employer called for a wellness check when I didn't show up which I'm really lucky the police found me because I was a couple miles in the woods.
I still struggle with thoughts time to time, especially in mixed episodes, but I've been to enough groups that the philosophy of "Embrace all feelings; guide all behaviors" is kinda etched into my brain now.