Well if I am totaly honest it was for me, I was being selfish as I wanted somthing that belonged to me and in my ignorance/youth I didnt understand that children are on loan to you and then you have to give them back (to themselves).

I am a very insecure person and needed the comfort of somthing that no one could take away and in thinking about it I am gratefull my first husband was such a louse as he didnt really care for them and left them to me. Oh I know I am getting that all wrong and am rambling as if he had been a good husband as the one I have now then I wouldnt of needed somthing for me and wouldnt of had them (maybe).

Now I have got myself all confused......