Hello Rys: I believe this is your first post here on PC. Welcome to Psych Central.

The PTSD forum as well as the Steps to Better Self Esteem forum, here on PC, may be of interest to you. Here's a links to these forums just in case you haven't already found them:

https://psychcentralforums.com/post-traumatic-stress/

https://psychcentralforums.com/steps...r-self-esteem/

And then here are links to 9 articles, from Psych Central's archives, that may be of interest:

Posttraumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) | Psych Central

What Is Self-Esteem?

6 Tips to Improve Your Self-Esteem

Here's Why you Feel Like a Failure + 10 Facts you Should Know | NLP Discoveries

https://psychcentralforums.com/steps...r-self-esteem/

https://psychcentral.com/lib/buildin...dium=popular17

https://psychcentral.com/lib/what-re...-esteem/?all=1

https://psychcentral.com/blog/the-1-...tuck-in-a-rut/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/8-step...yourself-more/

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.