Uuuugh. Today was so stressful. Things are still unclear at my job. All the paras are nervous that corporate is not going to pay us. Especially the one to ones like me. My clinician said districts might refuse to pay for a one to one because we weren’t assisting the student behaviorally. But that’s not fair! I am assisting him academically still!! My job is to provide behavioral AND academic support. I don’t know. It’s all so unclear. We are physically going in to school tomorrow again but I can’t go past tomorrow because I don’t have anyone to watch my son. I can still work from home as agreed but if they choose not to do that and just have us come in to the building each day and call from there, I’m screwed. I hate this. Besides, I have a feeling we are days away from a complete lockdown in my state. All schools statewide have been ordered to close. All restaurants, casinos, bars, gyms, movie theaters, entertainment venues, etc are closed. All non essential business are supposed to close. RS doesn’t have to close as of right now bc his work has less than 30 people but who knows. These are very uncertain times.

I feel like I need to keep buying more food. I’m paranoid that we will be quarantined for months, not weeks. We have a lot though, we might just need to go vegetarian for awhile lol.

My therapist has switched to teletherapy. I’m not sure about my pdoc, but I’m not scheduled to see her until May anyway. I have to count my meds though; the Pharmacy originally said I would get one month with two refills but this is my second month and it says no refills. My pdoc called in 90 days worth in feb but my insurance won’t cover 90 days at a time (wtf). I dunno, I have to call.

My heart wasn’t racing and I could breathe today but I kept getting dizzy again. I’m supposed to get a CBC to check for anemia but idk when I’ll be able to get that done.