I told my therapist the other day that I could feel a good hypomania was coming on, she was not so happy about that as I was.

I was ready to try and kick it into full blown hypomania

She was trying to remind me of the last few episodes and how much I regretted things i did (my hand is still hurting from punching the wall in the hospital, and before that one oh boy... I don't even want to think about it!)

I was already hypomanic by the end of the appointment and got to go visit the ED for a psych evaluation (at least I was able to have my parents take rather than having to go in police escort)

It was not fun crashing back down either! I think that I always forget the crash that comes after the hypomania.

It's a real struggle to not crave the high and to remember the consequences and the low after. Be careful.