5 months ago, my husband forced me to sign the divorce paper and I found out that he had been having an affair for 2.5 years. he promised to stop and said he regretted divorcing me but decided to go on a "business" to see this person behind my back on my birthday again. He came back and left again the next day, Xmas Eve, to go celebrate Xmas with her. Two days later, I discovered that they were to be married in a month. by googling both of them names together. He came back and told me that he was over with this person and wanted to call off the wedding. He proceeded by going to go through the wedding ceremony and honeymoon with her and then came back. He told me there was no legal paper done and he still wants to be with me. Just today he told me he is going to go travel and see her during this Coronavirus crisis. I feel like the biggest loser for still loving him and keep taking him back. I'm beyond devastation.