I didnt have a clue where to put this....

Ive just realised that because of the way I am, since I left college, my life has been an absolute mess - i have no life basicaly - and I want to so badly get it back together and start again but I havent a clue what I want to do!! Ive been looking for a full time job, but have had no luck doing that, theres nowhere around here, I especially need somewhere close to home because I have no transport (no money for a car.... I need a job to get money... I need a car to get a job... how ironic lol).

I have a diploma in make-up but it's not enough to get a proper make-up job, I cant afford anymore further education so I'm holding that thought for now, maybe I'll be able to do it in the future.

But I havent a clue what to do!!!!! I feel like I'm stuck I n a rut, most of my mates are off to uni this year doing what they want to do and it feels like I should be doing the same. But Im not

Im so confused, it's making me feel bob

bg xxx