Have been severely depressed for a couple of months now. It got worse these past few weeks and I'm having pretty bad SI. Only thing stopping me is that I don't want to do that to my family. Now I can't even go to therapy because they're closed due to corona. I don't know for how long but it's going to be at least a few weeks. I don't know how the hell I'm going to survive that long. I don't even know how I'm supposed to get through another day. I'm meant to be working but my brain won't cooperate and I'm afraid I'll lose my job if I don't find a way to concentrate. It's getting impossible to pretend like nothing's going on.