I really struggle with sui thoughts, though I think I wouldn’t act on them. Right now my dad is working from home due to the Coronavirus so that makes me even more safe. I’ve attempted in the past, I would probably benefit from an IOP or PHP right now, but I’m having problems even getting out of the house. I no-showed to my last pdoc appointment. Right now I have flulike symptoms, so I’m supposed to stay home anyways. I’m restarting my meds, I’d quit them, so hopefully that help, though I feel like I’m just settling myself up for more cycling. The meds only help for a bit, then I crash again.