My therapist said it's not really that unusual. She said that I shouldn't really worry about the occasional thoughts that have popped in my head recently, that it doesn't mean I'm going to end up having them all the time like when I was younger. And to just stay aware of how I'm feeling and if things change to where I have any specific thoughts towards someone to go to the ED and get evaluated. So that's a releif! I guess I've been worried about this all my life for no reason.