Hi Roseboi,

What you describe is something I can definitely relate to. It took me an agonizingly long time to move forward after having been hospitalized for mental illness. That time was just awful beyond words.
Just nightmarishly awful.

I know I am not in your shoes and I wouldn't want to trespass on the absolute uniqueness of your experience, but I think I have at least some idea of the terrible ordeal you are going through. Those who have never experienced the same or similar things cannot understand. I think you are very heroic!

-- Yao Wen.