I made that mistake .Being you are told to be strong and not to show any weakness or problems .So i did for years I hid my Depression or hid from it .Every year it got harder and harder to snap out of it till one day I just didn't . I didnt leave my basement for 6 months it was hell I would wish every night that i wont get up the next morning I was just tried of living .I did get help but it took making some very bad mistakes where the courts force me to get treatment .
years have gone by and i feel much better but I be leave now that i did alot of damage be forcing myself to normal so i was like everybody else my hole life was spent doing that .This triggers pop up all the time and keep me from doing alot of things most people take for granted .It ok now this is who i am and i don't hate myself for being depress any more .

All i can say to you that the longer you run away from your problems the bigger they are going to become you can not run away from depression >The longer you run from it the longer its going to take fix